Throughout my school years, I was never the type of person who enjoyed getting up in front of the class and presenting a paper or poster for a project. Even reading a paragraph in a book out loud in class was nerve wracking.
I can remember when we had to do “popcorn” in class, which was when you would read as much as you wanted out loud and then call on a classmate to pick up where you left off. Any time someone called on me, I would read a word or just one sentence then call popcorn. Oh, and at the beginning of new classes, teachers would ask us to tell them one thing about themselves they would like the teacher to know. I always put down “I do not like to speak publicly.” The reason why I dread it so much is because I shake, my face gets super red, which is completely noticeable because I’m so pale, and I have a stuttering problem as well. All those things combined are just a recipe for disaster.
The funny thing about all of this is that, for those who know me well, my true personality is outgoing and bubbly. Others may think public speaking would be easy for me, but unfortunately it’s not.
Being in college now, they expect it often from all students. Recently, I had a mishap of trying to present my paper in front of my class. Let’s just say I was told to sit down — embarrassing much? It’s a constant battle because I do try to hide from it. If presentation were removed from the curriculum I would be a happy girl!
So, for those who also struggle with glossophobia – the term for fear of public speaking — trust me when I tell you that you’re not the only one! Just don’t ask me to tell you in front of the whole class, ok?